Hi everyone. How's your day? I hope it's amazing, not like mine. Sigh.
So, I had a new revolution starting from today. After a halfway of reading a very very great book titled, How to Think Like a Great Graphic Designer, it's a very very recommended book actually, I've learned one thing I called the 5 years cycle. Every designer would have this cycle I'm pretty sure. What do I mean of cycle? It's about the time that you should reflect on your self about what you've done in this 5 years, filter some things out, and finally you should say goodbye to it. You should left it out and begin a new thing. Nothing is last forever in this world and for all designers this execution time comes once in five years.
So ..., from now on, all my post will be titled based on the date I write it, but, I'll add five years for the years. In five years time, I hope I could re-read it and filter some things out of it and finally said my farewell to the rest. I might giggling about my stupidity and naiveness, but all of this is a very precious moment I've gone through in the process. And I know, for sure, someday I will be success, I believe in this, for the sake of every people who has loved me.
Today's story. I'm being embarrassed in front of everyone. Guess what? One of my great lecturer, a very great lecturer, Winnie Tan, she ask me to do one of the yoga pose to relieve my stress. Okay I know it's really embarrassing. So I asked the whole class to follow her, and end up the whole class is doing yoga today. Yeah, right. But it's not about the yoga I'm gonna talking about today, it's about her, should I say sincerity? I don't even know what a right word should I express it. So, I'm really stress actually, honestly, I feel like stuck, I can't think properly and worst, I'm being sensitive these days because of my you-know-what. Like I said before, my head was filled up with a ton of questions about my FYP, about the concept, about my capability. And actually, I'm still feels bad for one of my best friends, Jessica. I had such a misunderstanding with her, and it was my fault. I know I shouldn't that sentence, but I said it. This stupid mouth and brain of mine, I don't even know what happened to them, but they just say the words out. And it's just happened. I know I've been apologizing her so many many times, and I think she had forgiven me, but I feel that I'm a really, really bad person for saying that words. I feel like have no attitude. I really don't mean it, Cika, and I couldn't forgive myself for doing that to you.
In additional, this morning, the other lecturer didn't support me in the way that, she told me that she's confused with my concept. Her face expression, her gesture are all already expressed that she didn't stand in a same way with me. She's lost. So, with those all problems stuck in my head, honestly I feel like crying, but I know I shouldn't do it and embarrass myself. I try to hold it, but at that time, the situation is just, oh God, it's like screaming at you and tell you to cry out loud. I told Winnie about what Bell has told me about, and she's actually understand my position. But same thing, she stand opposite me. What she has said was:
"You are boxing yourself and you try to fit yourself in this box. If you feel that this 'Baking' concept is not working anymore, why should you boxing yourself inside and try to fit yourself in? You should just open the box and free yourself. You should stop looking outside and begin to look into yourself, NAFA is about us, it's about your personal experience. And personal experience is something about doing that you like, it's about doing something happily. Something that's done happily will produce something that can make people happy too. It will automatically inspire people."
Another great advice again. I found it true to be honest. This concept made me asking so many questions to myself, and ... that's it! I meet the end part of it. This should just be ended here. So, today, at this moment I finally meet the situation that has been describe in that book, when you are actually face a wall and you should be dare to leave all the things here. Because everything you're gonna do, the wall would never gonna be moved, and it might end up you just stuck yourself there, trying to fix yourself in.
So people, let's move back, try to find another way out, and wrap up!
Everything's gonna be okay. It's a common thing here. Don't be scared to express your mind, if you did it happily, it will definitely inspiring.
See you in the next post! Have a great day :D
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