A Wake Up Call

Here I am, sitting in front of my computer and gonna share with you guys about my feelings.
My mom always told me that life is gonna be up and down, it will move like a wave, it will keep rotating like a wheel, and it will bring you many many experiences. I DO believe in that.


Back to the time when my beloved person left me, my mom, and my brothers without taking any responsibility upon his family and going somewhere I knew for sure, I decided that I should helps my mom to replace his role, together, I knew we can do it.
Many problems and obstacles came to us, especially economical problems, it such like a never ending storm. But that time, I believe that even tsunami has an ending. This is not gonna be the end of my world. That time I remembered about what my mom's have said to me, I was in the bottom point of my 'wheel'.
After that, many many miracles come to us, it such like there's a real REAL GOD exist in this world.
There's always a solution for each problems. And it was arranged to come in an exact time, it would not come earlier or late. By then, I knew that my 'wheel' is moving up a bit by a bit.
Until now, my 'wheel' is still moving, but I feels like it is moving down. I think I've just passed a moment when my 'wheel' reached it's top point. It such an 'wake up call' after some hours of break and it's back to study time. 
For now, I'm real afraid about being in that bottom point again. I feels alone right now with no logical reason. I'm not ready to learn yet. For sure. 
I really want to tell God that I need a rest, I know that learning time is important. But could I postpone it for a while? Or it would be better if I can just passed it. I'm real tired, really really tired here. 


But still, Father is a great Father. He wouldn't grant that silly wish of mine, He knows, when I start to rest, I would keep asking for it. Yeah, still, He knows what's the best for me.
And I do believe that He will be with me all along the way. 


That's all I can prepare to faced my turning 'wheel'. I promise I would keep putting this smile in my face as long as I could. 
See ya in the next post. Have a great day!